Infatuation

So... I realize that I've taken a break from actively wanting to pursue anybody or date anyone. But now I think I'm ready to be serious in dating again and it turns out that I do have my eye on someone. I'm excited because there is somebody that I actually really do like a lot. Problem is though I've never even talked to them. I've never seen in person. And briefly in a accidental texted conversation where I hsd butterflies and shaky hands. Somehow, someway I always seem to get this kind of infatuation with women who appear as "damsels".

Women usually getting over an ex-boyfriend, have confidence issues... a plethora of things. I'm not trying to be a Superman and save them- its not what I want or am striving for. What it is and what I'm really wanting-- seeking-- is just someone who really wants me. No fear and no trepidation. They can have kids, grandkids even, or due to circumstances have moved back in with their parents. It's ok- I would assure them of that and honestly... who doesn't come with some baggage?

I guess what I'm really wanting is somebody who can see me thru all my stuff- my issues really and aren't afraid to take a chance. They're eager to see what we can do together. But until then, I fight this lifetime losing battle infatuation.

I crush a lot. What a battle...